Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Oh grief! Oh Mitchell!

We've had some great advice on helping us learn how to deal with the grieving process, and pain.  Cry, pray, talk, blog...  I could never do the emotions I have justice or describe the painful heartache I have from losing my precious precious baby boy.  But I think I will feel healing from the very small amount I can do.  I wish I had the energy to blog evey photo, and describe every detail that goes through my mind... but I'm too exhausted, both physically and mentally.  I want to try and post as much as I can, but know it will never be adequate or do Mitchell justice.  

Mitchell's funeral on Monday was very painful yet perfect. Family and friends did so much to help us make this a very special and commemorative day. Thank you, thank you. We were so blessed to have so many attend. All of mine and Jake's siblings, plus several spouses, and both sets of Grandparents were there to help us mourn along with so many or our dear friends. The tables, decorations, videos, photos, food, programs, cards, flowers, pictures everything.... was just right and helped us feel so comforted. The pain is very really. It doesn't seem possible to feel this much heart ache. I miss this little boy it is so hard to think about anything else. Oh what I would give to have him back..

Step one... the program.  It was so amazing in real life, with the cover tied together with a ribbon.  I absolutely loved it!


  1. My heart aches for what you and your family must be going through, Kellie. The mourning process is so long and so difficult. And, I can't imagine how much you must want to hold you sweet little Mitchell. I know he will be there to comfort you often and pray for your heart to heal. Love ya!

  2. Hi Kellie, Sunday during Sacrament meeting Becky (Rapp) was out with her sweet new baby and I was out with my sleeping Calvin in the halls and she was able to tell me all about the funeral. We sat and cried for an hour, reflecting on all that you have been through, the pain you feel and of course your remarkable courage and strength. I think of you so often and keep you in my prayers. Lots of love to you.